Ever wish you could control time?
Just for an hour?
Slow it down for just a few precious minutes?
Lately I’ve been feeling like time is flying. You blink and it’s the next day and you’re wondering, where did my day go? I confess a lot of my day gets drained because I’m holed up in a book somewhere but I haven’t even been able to read most days and I’m wondering where are all my minutes going?
I just want to slow time down, just for a moment, so I can accomplish a few goals. Logically I know I wouldn’t be able to make that happen in an hour unless it was a very, very slow hour but give me a moment to try and learn a new skill I’ve been trying to start for months. I recently dropped my online job because I didn’t have enough time to work it. It was a gig that was completely flexible; I had complete control over when and how much I wanted to work. However, it was only supplementary income to my physical job. Having two jobs is really difficult. I mean its necessary at any given moment because you have responsibilities but it definitely takes it’s toll. Unfortunately, I’m having second thoughts where I’m wondering if that was a good decision because it was a sort of security; something I can rely on if I were ever to be out of a physical job. It’s really hard to not question a decision once it has been made even though it felt like the right decision in that moment.
I don’t really know where I’m going with this post. I don’t want to completely stop time. I don’t even want to rewind time. I’m not trying to avoid aging and I have no desire to be immortal but it would just be nice if on those days, when it’s overwhelming and the day is just cycling by way too fast, I had the ability to push pause. Those precious minutes could give me time to focus but they could also be a moment to steal some seconds doing what I actually want to be doing in the chaos that is my world.