Everyday Occurrence

Natural.

Wild.

These are the patterns I see everyday. These are my true colors.

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Synchronicity

Desire is synonymous with temptation. Would you agree? Take a walk in your mind and think about how often, in a day, you desire something.

Every morning I wake up to my alarm that  goes off at the same time. I know it’s coming and yet I dread it. My desire to stay beneath the warm sheets is strong. Not that I don’t like my job, but my bed never fails to tempt me to stay in it. At work, it’s lunch time. I bring a lunch, usually leftovers, to eat. However, as soon as I open my Tupperware, stare at my food, I lose the desire to eat it. It’s Taco Monday or Sushi Wednesday, I tell myself. Justifications for my desires along with the temptation of not so healthy food. I’m having a text conversation with a friend on my phone. I will them to respond while trying to be nonchalant about it in my mind. The pain in my body is strong. I’ve already taken x amount of mg of this or that. I desire to add more medicine into my system while trying to tell myself I am stronger than the pain. I’m stuck in traffic. I don’t know what’s going on or how long I’ll be at a standstill. I’m eager to be home, in my husband’s arms curled up in his love. I’m riveted to a great story or television show. My desire to sleep is crumbling because I need to know how it all ends.

Desire. Temptation. Will. Eager. I can’t feel one without feeling another. They go hand in hand. I can’t desire without temptation. I can’t be eager without will. I crave it. I love it. I want it. I need it.

 

Can I? Should I? Maybe?

Can I?
Should I?
Maybe?

These are the things we ask ourselves when we’re hesitant in a decision. Can I really change my career? Should I order that dessert that’s calling my name? Maybe I should hold off on that decision until something better comes along. Any of these sound familiar? Why is the natural instinct for choice to hesitate? Why raise that level of doubt when it can be nonexistent? Probably because we feel it necessary to weigh all options before making that choice. Maybe we are in a situation where we need to think before we speak and that one second of hesitation can make a difference between keeping or losing a relationship. Maybe none of that matters. Don’t hesitate, just say it, just do it; you only live once and it will open doors. No thinking. Just instant choices, instant decisions, deal with the consequences, if any, later. I wonder, do you think even those people have a moment of hesitation?

I look back on important points in my life and I wonder if the outcome thus far would be different? Would I be any happier than I am in this exact moment in time? At this rate, I believe it can only get better, happier, stronger from here. Ask me again a year from now. 🙂

How do you live your life? Is your hesitation level situational? Curious.

 

 

“Confidence is what we get when we take fear, face it and replace it.”
― Tim Fargo

The Strength of Friendship

I’ve had an idea for a post on my mind all day long. I couldn’t quite figure out where to start to write it. I came across the Daily Prompts page and decided today’s word would actually work out in what I’m trying to get across. Last night I was invited to tag along with a group of friends for dinner. We had a great time; talking and laughing and sharing stories. When I got home later in the evening, I had a moment of reflection. I thought to myself how lucky I am to have these friends; how much fun they bring to my life. Do you ever just sit down and think about everyone you interact with each day and how much they actually mean to you? Who your real friends are and really, what is the definition of a real friend?

Each of of us have different definitions. For me, I would define a real friend to be someone who likes you the way you are. I don’t mean looks wise, I mean personality wise. Someone who always has your back in any situation. If your name were to come up in a negative light while you were not around, your friend would be the first one to call someone out. Someone who keeps your secrets and honestly, knows that sometimes it’s necessary to break those secrets. Someone who laughs with you, cries with you and will be blatantly honest with you when they think you’re being an idiot and then laugh about that too later. This is where you realize that at the center of everything there is always that one person or couple of people that just fit your always evolving definition of a real, true friend.

Now, this doesn’t apply to everyone. Some people are really, really good at making friends. I envy those people. For the rest of us, we make friends, hope we’ll become close to them, and then hold on to them as long as possible because the process of finding a new friend is hard. Most of us meet our closest friends in the workplace. These are people we see five out of seven days a week or more. I’ve been told not to make friends at work before but how can you not? My co-author and I met through work and throughout transfers, workplace drama and almost anything else you can think of, our friendship has survived. I think the root of a lasting friendship is to want to have a lasting friendship. Sounds super simple but as adults, we have to work a little bit harder to keep something we want to survive.